Hit In The Face

Ohmygoodness. Wow. I don't get it? Like you tell me your done with me and then i try and be happy again, but then you come back and apologize. Now I'm worrying. What if I make the wrong choice on this apology? Like I don't want to hold a grudge because that seems mean, but what if its the thing from keeping me not hurt. What do I do? Give it more time? What if time can't heal this one? What if this one is all up to me? God wants this to be another "Listen to your heart" again. Goodness. That's the worst way to make my decision.