Today:

Was pretty odd. I woke up to the thoughts of, "Today is Katelyn's birthday." Well my day at school was just pretty good. I wrote a note about my feelings for him. I had a really inspirational chapel that I really liked. It rained so that just made my even better. I didn't have to run the mile either! So I was satisfied by my school day. I got home just kinda thinking about this mess my friends are in. And that put me in a really frusterated mood. So i just shook it off. Then a get a text that puts me in a really good mood. I told my side of the story, the truth. And she told her's. So i thought we were cool. But obviously not. We're not. So then I get a phone call from a good friend. We talk about it and she just makes me feel better even though I did something wrong. She forgave me for it. Well I still felt bad. Then I started crying, I never cry. I usually just keep it all in and blog about it. And I cried for like a half hour. So i finally dry up my tears and call the closest friend I have at the moment. I tell her everything, and she lets me cry for a while. Then she just tells me the truth, gives me the best advise I've heard in a while. We realized what is really wrong, but it won't be fixed. Yeah I still want to cry, but I won't, I'm learning to be stronger. I feel mad and upset so I'm just gonna blog about it and feel better. After all, this is my own little way of slitting my wrist.