Sigh

I don't even know my own best friend anymore. What happened? I mean we were inseperatable. Now i'm like 3rd or 4th resort. Sure I act like it's nothing, but it really is something. Lately, I've just wanted to cry, but I'm stronger than that so i don't. I know I should speak with her about this, but I can't. I'm afraid this is gonna turn into something we both will just put off and then the day we finally talk about it, it will be too awkward. :/. And she makes the rudest remarks toward me. I just play it cool, but if I had the chance, I would cry. I really don't like this addolesence thing.